50. Oh it's 2014 already?

Happy new year! it's the year 2014!

Time to make new mistakes! to meet new obstacles!

So that I can gain more experience! 

nahhh.. not really. 

Let's see, 2013 was really a roller-coaster 

I had so many ups and downs (mostly downs) but thankfully I learned from it

I had happy moments too. The one who really made me feel happy, I am really thankful for it even though we don't talk any more due to the issue we have. 

Memories and feelings with you, I'll remember it.

But that's in the past, no point trying to patch it up. I've made no regrets.

Best highlights in 2013?

1. Doing things and not caring about the consequences. 

2. Met someone special to me but sadly it didn't work out

3. Getting in touch with my "sadistic" side

4. Found that everyone (including me) has a mask on, and some people are more professional in acting

5. Also found a few people whom I like to maintain a friendship with. 

6. Found that being in solitude makes me calm.

I'm hoping that this year is going to be as interesting as last year

I don't mind the challenges or the obstacles

I'm just worried that it's gonna be a dull one.

49. Goodbye...

Lastly, I wouldn't be able to achieve it without your guidance and care.

" You were there when I was weak, afraid and naive

  You kept me sane from my nightmares and anxiety

  You showed me that pain is temporary, and that courage is what I need to overcome fear

  When I was young and naive, you showed me that life can be cruel and hard

  You've helped me stand on my own two feet; to be independent in life

  And You thought me to love and cherish significant people in my life,

  Even though people may walk out from your life, there are a few that are worth your attention.

  There are so many incidents in my life and you were mostly in it, picking me up every single time I  met with  an obstacle.

  Your guidance made me who I am today and I sincerely thank you for that. "

It is not easy to let go of someone who has made such a big impact in your life

A person who was once your pillar of strength

Goodbye my dear 

I wish you all the best in the UK.

48. Turn down the lights...

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't.

You can't make your heart feel something it won't.

Here in the dark, in these final hours.

I will lay down my heart.

Sigh...

This is what happens when you thought you have finally let go of it.

Why are you in denial?

Once bitten... Twice shy...

But the second bite?

The fool is me, isn't it?